My Husband’s Christmas Cactus is Blooming

December 17, 2016, 11:09 am

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My husband had this cactus for many years! It sits beneath my kitchen window! It usually blooms around Thanksgiving, but it didn’t this year! I wonder if it knew my hubby was dying! No of course not, but funny how the mind of humans thinks!

Well after preparing my dinner and doing some cleaning up in my kitchen, I noticed it has blooms! It brings bitter sweet tears to my eyes! I am so glad it is blooming! I gave it some plant food and hopefully it will continue to produce more flowers! I see buds on other branches!

Thank you Christmas Cactus!
Hugz Blondie and Boo Bear

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Sharing My Grief To Help Others!

December 30, 2016, 6:50 pm

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I love to write and Sis Andi suggested I share my experiences of my grief and also how my new chapter in life is going since then. Every one is different in how they grieve! Just know that if you need to cry, do so! I allow myself to cry when I have to cry! Here is my tribute to my husband that I wrote when I was taking care of him in his last days here at home!

My poor husband has suffered off & on with cancer since 2001. He has finally got to the point where the treatments just aren’t working anymore.
He has elected to not continue to fight since the treatments aren’t doing any good. We brought him home to rest in his own environment until the Lord calls him home.
He is so very sweet even when he is very sick! We are being helped & guided by hospice to help us with his journey.
We are both very scared because of the unknown. My job is to make sure he is comfortable & not suffering as best we can.
It is so hard to watch someone you love suffering from the effects of cancer & try their best to beat it!
From the very beginning I have always been there for him & tried to be his angel wings & help him through it!
With this last test of life I didn’t know if I had the strength to get through this but it is a gift for my husband to be able to die with dignity in his own home rather that in a hospital in which he has seen far too many of those in his lifetime!
Out of all the hospitals he has endured – Knight Cancer Institute at Meridian Park Hospital has been the best for him! Meridian Park did their best to help him!
During my caring for my husband at this very difficult & scary time for the both of us – he put his hand on my face & said “I am glad that you are here”!
While he was in the hospital & I was home sleeping and being home to take care of the dog – even thought he was very ill he managed to squeeze out a text to ask how I was doing, if I was okay.
I will cherish those memories along with many, many more during out 7 years of marriage.
The poor guy hasn’t had much of a break since he had to go on disability because of the constant battle with cancer.
In the beginning he had warned me about his health issues. Because of our love we didn’t let it stop us & I always stepped up to the plate to help him!
As a movie quote goes: “I would rather have 30 minutes of wonderful, than a lifetime of nothing special”! Quote from Julia Roberts in Steel Magnolias!
Thank goodness that wonderful lasted 7 years of happiness!

Embrace the memories of your loved ones, don’t be afraid to grieve as you need to if you lose them! I have kept busy to keep depression at bay as best as possible! Loving my dog and my close friends helps so much! Don’t be afraid to ask for help when you need it!

Hugz Blondie and Boo Bear

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Remembering Bear as a Little Puppy…

January 24, 2017, 6:15 am

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Here is a photo of my fur kid when he was little! Look at those big paws! Fond memories of the little guy! He will always be my puppy no matter what age! My bestest fur kid!

Hugz from Bear and his mama

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Replaced Hubby’s Favorite Music

March 7, 2017, 4:30 pm

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These were among hubby’s favorite music groups, I love them too. His cd’s were damaged so I had to replace them! It’s just a fond memory of my husband!

Hugz Blondie and Boo Bear

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Me & My Niece a Few Years Ago

July 8, 2017, 2:09 pm

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‘She turned 18 today. Sis shared this pic with me! Kiley is so cute! She has grown into a gorgeous model looking young lady! We were down visiting their goats which I always loved to do! Fond memories, I am glad I got to watch her and her brother grow up!

Hugz Blondie and Boo Bear

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Drift Creek Covered Bridge, Lincoln City

July 21, 2017, 6:04 am

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This bridge was considered the oldest covered bridge in Oregon.The bridge was dismantled in late 1997 and the County gave the timbers to the Sweltz family who owned the land only 8 miles to the north of the original sight.

The bridge was resurrected where it now stands with a beautiful house behind it!

Here is the beautiful house behind the bridge!

Hugz Blondie and Lucy

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Be Sure To Let Those You Care For Know It!

August 18, 2017, 3:53 pm

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We lost one of our co-workers just the other day and it is a big reminder to be sure and let those family and friends and all of those that you care about know how much you care and love them!

I have worked with a lot of these people for many years and it sad when someone you know like that up and passes away! It is a big reminder that life is so very short and we can’t take any day for granted! We don’t know when it is our time to leave this earth or some one very close to you passes on!

I hope that I leave a nice footprint on people’s hearts as I like to be an angel and touch people’s life in the most positive way!

Lucy and I wish you the very best!
Hugz Blondie and Lucy

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Honoring My Loss of Hubby & Bear

September 11, 2017, 3:08 pm

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It has been 10 months since my husband passed away and two months since Bear passed away. Daffodils were one of hubby’s favorite flowers. Around the 11th of every month is it is hard. November will be the hardest! September 11th is hard for all the loss of the attack on World Trade Center etc too!

Lucy and I are doing good making new memories together!

Hugz Blondie and Lucy

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One Year Ago….

November 10, 2017, 3:10 pm

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One year ago tomorrow I lost my beloved husband and exactly 8 months later I lost my beloved Bear! I was very very strong helping Nathan through all of his chemo treatments and I had to be super strong during his time of death. That was the hardest hardest to go through.

I can’t believe a year has elapsed already! I have been keeping myself busy working on my house, visiting my friends and being with my beloved Lucy girl! Tomorrow I am working to make some extra money so I won’t be sitting around being sad or depressed! I have come to the point of accepting his death but it doesn’t make me miss him any less! I talk to him and that helps! I hope he can hear me! tee hee! Bear too!

I am sure happy I have my little Lucy to help me fill my days! She brings me such joy!

Hugz and Have a safe Veteran’s Day! My husband served in the U.S. Coast Guard! Thank you to all who have served!

Blondie and Lucy Goosey

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Poem I Wrote For My Husband Long Ago!

November 22, 2017, 1:31 pm

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I was cleaning on two rooms in my house and found a scrapbook I had made for my husband. I used to write poetry and here is one I had written for him! I am feeling nostalgic and usually do around the holidays. I miss him a lot! This is a fond memory & I had forgotten that I wrote it for him! I decided to share and bring you some joy!

True Love

My love for you
will never die
But grows fonder
every day!

I can’t believe
How much you have
Made me happy
In every way!

I wish to share
My life with you
I give you my heart
And devotion

They way you show me
How much that you care
Fills me with such emotion!

I cannot believe
How lucky I am
I keep pinching myself
Is this real?

Don’t ever be afraid
To express yourself
And show me how
You really feel!

If you’re ever depressed
or have a Ruff-Day
Just close your eyes
and embrace

The thought of us together
In each others arms
Should bring a warm & happy
Smile upon your face!

I think of you constantly
twenty-four seven
And when I’m with you
or talk to you
I’m in seventh heaven.

Just pinch me & shake me
To make sure I’m aware
This isn’t a dream
But it’s real!

I’ve never been treated
with such tender loving care
I hope that you realize
Jut how good you make me feel!

I cannot believe
This has happened to me
But it fills me with such elation
I’m willing to give you 100%
And more of my total dedication

This poem was written
Especially for you
To express how much
That I care!

And to let you know
I’m deeply in love with you
And that for you
I will always be there!

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We were each other rock, each other’s touch stone! He helped keep me grounded! I sure hope that you enjoyed this poem! It is a fond memory for me and dear to my heart!

Hugz and Happy Thanksgiving!
Blondie and Lucy Goosey

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A Fond Memory of Me and Bear

May 24, 2018, 3:53 pm

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My hubby took this pic of me and Bear a long time ago! He was my big baby boy! He sure loved his mama! Tee hee!

Hugz Blondie and Lucy Goosey

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Honoring My Lucy Goosey

June 13, 2018, 5:37 pm

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Honoring My beloved Lucy Goosey in my artwork on my walls! I will have to go through pics and have some made up of Bear too to put on my walls! The stuffed animals are supposed to be replicas of both my beloved fur kids!

I am working on a scrapbook for both of them too! I sure love them! My heart melts every time I see a German Shepherd out in the world too!

Hugz Blondie

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Flash Back of Me and My Baby Boy Bear

July 31, 2018, 2:25 pm

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This was in 2007, back when on a rare time I had my nails done, my hair was long and my beloved shepherd was a puppy! Fond me,pries of my fur kid!

Here is to hoping for cooler weather!

Hugz Blondie and Gizmo

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I Wished I Could Turn Back Time! Memories & Fondness of the Heart!

September 19, 2018, 4:16 pm

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I wished I could turn back time! To be with my beloved Boo Bear some more! He was so very loyal and special to me! He had my heart! He was my best friend! I will always love him! Forever and Ever!